Few trips Ahead.. in exile

I always try to be phoney.. i dnt know why. It doesn't do me any good especially if important things are at stake like taking to a girl you like.. I always fail.

Anyways I will be off to Tezpur and Arunachal pradesh for sometime. When I would return there would some more trips to unknown location in south. Right now I just feel little scared of travelling in 48 passenger aircraft. At the sametime I am damm scared of leaving a life that I have been living for last 10 years.

People do change their lives, change is always a constant in life. Its happening in my life, it was happening earlier also, but it revolved around a dream. The dream is still there, just am kindaa awake now. And planning to achieve that dream. I want a change where that dream becomes a reality.

There is a typical romantic feeling with me at present. Excited and Scared! no more scared less excited... I can only think of Christopher in the book Into the Wild, He went on a self initiated travel to higher ridges of Alaska, he was lively and he was brilliant. He wanted to do adventures but didnt want to die but died because he was unlucky to be trapped in nature's plays.

Why people are unlucky!

Not Going out Tonight

Today is Dussehra, most of the Jabalpur families are out roaming. The celebration reminds me of Dhadhikandav fair in Allahabad. I have grown up roaming kilometers in the fair and today I dont feel like going out. I have decided not to go outside today - may be I am nostalgic or may be am afriad of roaming like a stag in cold. The decorations are wonderful though and one should not miss it, and also the wonderful crowd.

In morning, however I visited some places viz Rani Durgavati Fort, a huge statue of lord shiva and an animated ride towards Mandla.

This picture was taken on way to fort, while I was climbing the hill, there was this small cut from main route... And this place was like finding a hidden treasure up above the hills. I really thanked my instinct for pushing me to the cut. ( can you see how sunlight sieves; nature is the biggest craftsmaker, and kudos to cameraman too).

I will paste the other pics in the long awaited Jabalpore blog!

There are drums all around here and while I planned to sleep by 8, I am still awake!
I'll try??

ps - there are pretty good songs in the movie - "no smoking".
jab bhi cigerette jalti hai, main jalta hoon"...
One more - "kash laga -2": somewhere from middle "jalti hain tanhayian, taapi hain raat raat jaag jaag ke, udti hain chingariyan, guchhe hain lal lal geeli aag ke..."

jodha-akbar

I read in some news column that Ashutosh Gowarikar found a chemistry that existed between Queen Jodhabai and king Akbar. They are showing that chemistry in a movie called Jodha-Akbar, due for release in January (someday which is lucky for Ashutosh). The movie is also called a magnum opus and depicts the chemistry of 15 years (from age 13 to 28).

Wow! am enthralled. First thing I did was search for the word "magnum opus" cause I had seen usage of "opus" quite often in cinema news. Opus means 'musical work that has been created' and magnum means 'great'..... sahi hai!! I was also wondering what chemistry (that is musical too, science and arts together) Ashutosh found; because history says it was all politics. Since the film is well researched, may be they found a hidden magnum document, where jodha expressed her feelings for Akbar and he in turn attacked their Place, bargained her later. Moreover later lured brother-in-law to become one of his loyalists. May be there was some reincarnation kind of thing for these two. I would look forward to see that, because that is something history didnt find out.

There is one more possibility, the movie depcits the marital life of jodha-akbar. May be they found it was unique and which mughl-e-azam could not show or didn't show. Ask me, and its all imagination. I dont think people were that open to write love stories on records, in those times. It is all imagination and little attached history. Like Shahjahan bulit the Tajmahal, and revolted for Mumtaj. Now everybody can make a story of what happened. If this reasoning sounds ok, then choice of jodha-akbar for this imagination sounds ridiculous to me at least. People would certainly doubt the possibility of it.

Why didn't he assume a normal couple to depict that chemistry! Would have been great, may be a hit too, but lesser on chances of Oscar selection.... :). Well what I really like about the movie is that the female's name is before the name of great king. See this is trick, Akbar-jodha always sounds better than jodha-akbar, but they went with lesser easy option, they want support of women organizations too. And beacuse I like both the leads and Ashutosh, I will see the movie.

Oh! I forgot, Ashustosh has this art of finding stories from histroy which everybody overlooked. Remember Lagaan... Has he got Links?? May be metempsychosis or reincarnation

cricket kum hai

Everything is fantastic in India's cricket history at the moment, they are enjoying, celeberating, playing, selecting, fighting except winning. Great! I am amazed at their terrific ability of self-exploiation. Symonds/Hayden should stay in the Oz team and the onus is on Indian bowlers and fielders. They even helped Gilchrist in getting form. Kind Indian Cricket team.

Yes, I am in bad mood; India has lost the 5th match. They are down 4-1 and it hurts. I am not worried at losses; they are part of game. I have never blamed the abilities of the team, I am trying to figure out whats worng with the team. They are loosing, Symonds makes 100+ in 80+ balls and Ganguly just the reverse. When people should stick to crease and make run, atleast singles, they try to read the ball, I mean when you have 318 to chase try to make run na ... and they know all this yet not doing. Is something wrong with the attitiude.

No, I think and Yes I beleive. Its a fact that the team has been at the best when it has played under pressure, may be 8/10 times the story has been like that. Why they are not under pressure, they were 3-1 before todays match... Blame our brilliant fans, the welcome, team has received after tte T20 world cup win, would be enough for atleast 3 series ( and I want to be proven very worng this time).

Come on, learning is the key! learn from your rivals.

Answer to "What do I do"?

The statuettes no longer amaze me, I have seen them many times! seen them in bhopal too. Am not going to stop writing because I couldn't click some of those. (plz refer to previous blog for the context).

Recently two music albums viz 'sawariya' and 'bhool bhuliaya' have made me feel good. Though the love songs haunts, (its my prob actually) I find the albums good. In 20 bucks there were many more movie albums in the same Cd Thanks to tech boom, I remember buying single audio cassette as costly as 120 re. By the way did i ever tell that "unchained melody" by righteous brothers is the best romantic songs I know till date...

Misfortune is a dreaded word, and its proponents believe more in it than its counterpart i.e. fortune. Well there are few things which makes me not to believe these proponents, I think misfortune is an excuse of not having done something or achieving. There are some incidents which can be termed misfortunes like some cigarette misfortunes can be - 1. you light the cigarette and threw it away while keep the burning/burnt matchstick in mouth and 2. you light from the other end! First one hurts though. A professor did an experiment where he asked people to fill 20 page questionnaire; in one of the pages there was a note something which could have made them win some money. Some people saw that , some didnt. ( you must have come across this earlier )What do you call this.. was this misfortune. My answer - No, they were just busy seeing other things, it would have been misfortune if they had seen that note and still couldnt pay attention, thinking it was fake!!

It makes me think that people often use 'unfortunates' and 'misfortunes' for a different word which is "being unlucky"! Yes those people were unlucky for they didnt see that. Now lucky and unlucky is again a debate but it exists for sure, you will have several references of these.

So, you can very well control misfortunes and being unfortunate. Use your common sense as much as you can but dont be alec! But being lucky or unlucky is not in your hand it just becomes.

enough bulshiting...

Life is not that cool while Jabalpur is getting cooler as days are passing by.

signing off ~ A

ps - and I really hate it when people say Sachin should not play now.